I know that they usually use the term 'cold feet' for weddings but believe it or not, I'm having cold feet for graduation or rather a great anxiety towards it... there's a lot hanging around my mind right now, ideas twirling around here n there, after all it was somewhat 4 years of my life that was spent there, friends, ex friends, boyfriends no wait scratch that exes.... damn! I'm anxious to actually have to through that period... I'm scared! for crying out loud I wanna scream n juz runaway n hide n fast forward everything until the end of that day... y am I anxious... well there's this 1 big question mark nor rather gray cloud, hanging around my head, will i be building bridges with ppl i cross on the wrong path or will I be burning that bridge further... damn! I hate it...! I hate the possibility of it becoming the worst day of my life... but nI don't think that it will ever be the happiest day of my life... after all usually... after having the happiest day, i usually get the worst! can't say vice versa though, sadly... sighz..... >.<
I guess the big frustration is coming from the fact that I'm not ready to meet with my nemesis's and perhaps foe's that i've made, intentionally nor accidentally during the period of my campus life... nevertheless I can only hope n pray for the best.... T_T
