Weird.... just plain weird... I've wrote a post a couple weeks ago, talking about new years and other sentimental crap... and the fact that I wanted to say goodbye to this so called 'guy' that I like, it looks like it's gone. Oh well, I might not saved it after all.
L O V E
It's a 4 letter word that no one can describe. Yes, you can find the meaning in the dictionary but I believe every single person in this planet has differing opinions about it. I just wish love would come easily to me but boy am I so wrong. The sucky part is that I still like the 'guy' whom I really need to get away from. I wish I could tell him I really really do like you, or rather have him say that to me. But I guess I'm dreaming about it, I don't think he'll ever mention that to me, hell, I bet he doesn't even feel a thing near love about me. I wish saying goodbye to this 'guy' is as easy as saying goodbye to any other friend like I have no feelings for him. It's proofable that it's not. I can't get you out of my mind.
Seriously, if you don't like me back and if this isn't worth it then please I need an out. I can't be friends with you, I like you too much to lose you to another person. I want to get to know you, I really do. Yet, I'm a girl, I don't think it's appropriate to say that to a guy. Call me old school or conventional but I still believe that a guy should say something first to a girl before anything can further happen. Crap! I'm rattling again, is this even worth it...??!?!?!??! I don't f***ing know :(
Maybe I should close that chapter of my life and just move on. Bye 'guy'!
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