Getting over you

I shouldn't have fallen in love with you, it was after all a very short period.
Yet I did.
No regrets, now that you're gone, I should really get over you.
You still haunt my dreams and my waking hour, how the hell do I get over you.
I've been close with another, yet you still haunt my thought.
I should, must and will get over you and I hope and pray for it to happen soon.
Screw you! You, who never had any intention to be with me, I hate you with all my heart!
This is me, getting apiece with myself,  I'm moving on.
Good bye jerk!

-A-

Sunday morning random thought

It's hard to be yourself and keep up with what is expected by society, at the same time not be called abnormal... insane. Hence, you'll be stuck in a longer identity crisis. I guess you can't satisfy both, either you try to be yourself or conform with the norm... or maybe you could get away with both... who knows... meh... I'm still wondering myself.
There are so many things that I would like to do but fear of society backlash... people say ignore others but can you really pretend to be deaf and ignore everything while still be a social human.... all this conflicted thoughts have got my head spinning on overdrive.... help!!!!! It's an enigma on its own HAH!

-A-

A post that I found stuck in my draft from 2010 :O

So long 2009, welcome 2010

I’ve been wanting to put this down in a note for god knows how long, and yes I’m still a darn good procrastinator!

I really hope to start this New Year with a fresh new start. A new job and a hope to off to Uni again (fingers cross for this one) and I really really hope to have a brand new and improved love life. Yeah, life’s been dull without love, what can I say. I guess I’ve really been unlucky in that area of my life. Not that I’m lucky on other areas, but I do have tons of things I have to be thankful about.

I’m thankful for the family and relatives I've been blessed with, the friends I’ve been lucky enough to be surrounded with, won’t be able to forget the happiness and joy that we shared. I’m thankful about the memories that I was able to create with these friends. Some of them are my colleagues from my old company; some of them are friends from High School or Uni even. I’m certain that I miss some of my friends whom are all busy with their life right now. I pray that our path crosses each other again and we will be able to meet up and hang out in the near future.

And for this so called guy that I’ve been liking for the past few months, I know you don’t like me and I’m pretty sure you’re not worth the effort so I’m gonna have to say good bye and thanks for the knowledge that you’ve unconsciously/consciously gave me. This is my farewell to you, I wish you well J

It’s a brand new year a fresh new start. Sadly, I’m gonna have to start having a resolution or I’ll be cursed with procrastination again L

Adios!

It's been forever!

It's been forever since I last wrote on my blog I even forgot about it!
Days are going really sloooowwwwwww.... nothing to do... still looking for work, chasing interviews (well not really since I've only seriously applied to 2 companies, hopefully wud be accepted in the 1 that I've always wanted to work in... insya allah!)
As for boys... I have 2 current celebrity crush, well it's more like characters in TV series, one played by Christopher Gorham and the other by Eric Christian Olsen. I have no idea what their charms are, but god they are soo cute and their TV personality is damn great! Dunno how they are in real life but they seem to be committed to whatever relationship they currently have, both happily married btw ^^
I just pray that my future hubby wud at least be like them personality wise, I don't mind physique wise though *wishful thinking* but still... hmmmphhhh... Cute and adorable personality yet serious when they need to be, what a dream guy! :P

-A-

Random Quotes

"The powerful motivator in our lives isn’t money; it’s the opportunity to learn, grow in responsibilities, contribute to others, and be recognized for achievements." Frederick Herzberg
(Taken from http://hbr.org/2010/07/how-will-you-measure-your-life/ar/2)


Management is the most noble of professions if it’s practiced well. No other occupation offers as many ways to help others learn and grow, take responsibility and be recognized for achievement, and contribute to the success of a team.

We should be able to decide how to spend our time, talents, and energy.

The choice and successful pursuit of a profession is but one tool for achieving your purpose. But without a purpose, life can become hollow.

Le sigh... :(

Akhir-akhir ini bener2 sedih. Gw akhirnya ketemu sma org yg at least gw pny perasaan suka dan nyaman dan nyokap ga setuju sma dia. Bingung, kalut, ga ngerti harus ngapain. Di satu sisi gw hormat akan insting nyokap untuk protect anaknya tp di sisi lain koq gw ngeliatnya itu suatu kekhawatiran yang berlebih. Kadang pengen rasanya ga peduli dgn komentar nyokap tpi... tkut ntar malah kualat.

I know, kualat atau karma itu mgkn sbnrnya ga ada. But kok kayaknya ada aja yg nunjukin bahwa perhaps it does truly exist.

Sementara si cowok jg ga membantu utk ngebuat smua itu jadi mudah. Dia suka maksain pendapat (1 point I hate bout u dear). Yg bkin gw suka sma ini org adalah fakta bhw dia semangat untuk ngerubah nasib hidupnya dgn kerja keras. Ngedenger cerita dia blom tidur smaleman hny utk ngerjain event yg sharusnya dtanggung rame2, dgr cerita dia lg diskusi n nego sma klien dia, dgr dri temennya bhw kantor mrk lg over load. Kadang gw pikir, gila ya ni org, apa ga pernah cape ya.... dan.... skrg gw dah tau gmn ni org klo dah cape bgt... lg telp tiba2 ktdran, hebat! Well... gw sendiri on the other side of the phone jg dah ketiduran sih (senyum2 malu sendiri)

Terus... what I also like about him is dia sabar banget bantuin gw utk jdi lbh dewasa. I admit, I'm a spoiled brat! (another le sigh here). Dia yg slalu ngingetin utk ga terlalu sering tidur, lbh banyak usaha dlm ngejalanin hidup, jgn sering2 ngeluh, sma yg trakhir jgn tlalu bgantung sma uang ortu. Oh dear... how am I suppose to live between 2 person in my life that I love but 1 hates the other though the reverse is hopefully not true. :-s

Oh ya... bokap sih kliatannya sampe saat ini netral, tpi ga tau ya pikiran doi sbnrnya gmn. I really wish there is a solution to this problem. Cape' jg bo' mikirin jalan keluarnya.... :(

Dear heart

Please don't give up on me now, not yet. We might have to deal with another heart break but hopefully this will be the last. The best is yet to come, hopefully. Besides, they say what doesn't kill us only makes us stronger :D

Amin.

-a-